An Adult Weeps - Poem

It would be a lie to say
That I weep like a child
For I played with them
Today I saw them weep
They shed tears, moved legs
And waved their hands

But when I am about to sleep
I weep without moving
Either my legs or my arms
I just press my teeth
And feel my body aching
My head explodes I feel
Meaningless in all of myself
In my mind I weep loudly

But in reality I see that I
Am quiet. Family is sleeping
And I hear the sounds
Of their breath. Of my own
But my mind hits walls
I feel I have no way out

It happens again and again

And comes every few weeks
After I tell myself
That it is over now
So listen my friend

When I say I weep
I do not weep as children do

January 24, 2024